Modern Myth

I think i drew Lee Dong Wook about a month ago. Is it weird to say that his hand is my favourite part of the drawing?  Time flies a lot slower without the kids around. We're prepped and all ready to go for Zoom classes. I thought i've been doing well recently but it seems like i still can't listen to a lot songs. I get triggered by the littlest things and yo... The frustration is so real.  I'll allow myself to shut down today. 

We received an email regardin a mandatory swab test for all tenants to do today. I don't know who planned it  (or didn't)  because the crowd was wild. The queue extended beyond two bridges and it didn't die down, so we just went ahead and joined in. They should have separated us in batches according to levels or something . It felt like the whole hub was in the queue haha. I wish i was exaggerating. There were so many times i wanted to give up but i couldn't. That's how i feel with life sometimes.  When you just wanna give up but, you don't really know what you're giving up on exactly> We stood and waited for more than 3 hours in total. I had already done a swab prior but this one was a lil uncomfortable. It feels kinda like when you go swimming and you accidently get water all up your nostrils. Just 20 seconds in and we were good to go so that was aite .  Just when i thought i had minimal patience left in me, God showed me that i actually have a lot mor...

This picture was taken during our first lockdown. It was a week before everyone had to start working from home. I struggled with many things in the beginning but eventually got the hang of it. Sometimes i laugh to myself at the memories we shared. Like for instance, i had a 2hr long class with the Portfolio Kids and my 2nd screen ran out of battery. I was literally in the middle of demonstrating a drawing. I didn't realize they were staring at a blank screen until one of them said "What happened to Teacher Rainn 2???" hahaha.  Most of us have our own programmes to teach so, it's pretty rare to have all teachers in one class. We did have a couple and it was fun and definitely helpful. When you have 30-40 kids in one session, your screen might not be big enough to see all of them. The coordination between us were chaotic at first but somehow we pulled through. I guess the challenging issue was the fact that almost the whole world was on Zoom. It definitely c...

I finally finished Nezuko today. I'm sorry friends, i do not watch much anime nor am i a fan of Demon Slayer. Nezuko is currently one of the most popular character among current students and the public. I drew her as a sample for our new upcoming holiday workshop. I love using colour pencils but wow , they can be really energy draining sometimes. Haha.  Usually i'm all alone on Tuesdays. LS had to do a bunch of art kits so she joined in and we jammed to delightful One Direction songs. Hahaha. My previous Tuesdays have been painful and it was a struggle to be with my own thoughts. I can safely say that i am in a much better place now... but i also feel like i'm living my life in the confines of fear.  Managed to do an outline of what we'll be teachin in Zoom. It feels quite surreal to be back to where we once were. The first lockdown caused so much frenzy and it scares me that nothing much has changed since then. May God ease all our affairs.  My appetite is ...

Yknow what's funny to me? Is the fact that there are people out there who genuinely think that we choose to feel certain emotions. Why would anyone choose to feel upset? Why would anyone choose to feel wrong? Why would anyone choose to feel like death ? Have some empathy and compassion, friends.  Jeez . God knows the world needs it a lil more.

"Just wait and see" When i was at my lowest during early to mid Ramadhan, i was in such intense despair, i begged God to show me the way.  I slept after a longggggg ,day (weeks, months really) of emotional turmoil and had a strange, yet uplifting dream.  I dreamt that i was watching myself from a third person's perspective. Apparently i had a good friend that was feeling vexed and, she couldn't understand why everythin bad was happening to her. I watched myself talk her out of it so casually. I was incredibly confident and calm. I then ushered her to a random train station. There was already a train there  but i told her to wait and to not take it. " Just wait and see" My poor friend was feeling real hopeless and sad at a corner. She sat while i paced around. The platform was empty. No one in sight. Just the two of us, if i'm remembering correctly. Out of the blue, a sudden influx of people appeared from the level above us. They were going down the stair...

Guess who decided to stay home today? I went back to sleep again cause i had about 2-3 hours to kill before work. Woke up with twitchy eyes. My left is the sore one but somehow they're both affected. And when i got up, the headache that followed, was beyond me. I'm the type that goes to work no matter how unwell i feel but clearly we can't do that now. I remember feeling so upset that i couldn't go to work because i had minor coughing episodes. Haha . I should learn to put myself first. Waiting for updates regardin the meeting because i'm still clueless. I was annoyed with the headache and everythin so i forced myself to go back to sleep. I'm assuming this is normal . The fact that everythin goes crazy AF first before it gets better. Just like what Katy Perry says, "After a hurricane, comes a rainbow~" But i'm tired of the hurricanes, Katy. Can't i just buy the rainbow online and call it a day? - A lot of people are telling me i lost weight. A...