Modern Myth

 I guess the title speaks for itself, doesn't it? -  How does one feel incredibly young and old at the same time? I'm still in my 20s but it feels like i've lived forever. I had the worst Sunday of all Sundays combined this week. Okay, perhaps i should say last week since it's Monday.  Time is an illusion anyway. I don't enjoy being probed, questioned and stretched to my absolute limits but people seem to think i have answers to everything. People seem to expect and demand so much from me, as if i'm not just a regular Joe like literally everyone else. It's mentally exhausting, having to cater to literally hundreds of people BUT yourself. i want to show up for myself. But i have no time. How does that work?

I should really stop saying things like "hey, it has been a while hasn't it?" at the start of every blogpost, after a long hiatus. haha 2021-2022 has been quite something . Hasn't been that smooth but i'm grateful regardless. I turned 28 recently and had an amazing break in KL. Visited the Van Gogh Alive exhibition and got somewhat emotional. Perhaps someday he'd be able to see how his art is appreciated worldwide now, in another lifetime. Singapore's having a similar exhibit sometime in March too, from advertisements i've seen. They're both from different organisers so i might drag a couple of friends to witness the beauty together. I've decided to stay in today. This is quite rare. I'm 100% introverted but i try my best to busy my days. It doesn't matter if it's after work or on my off day, i'll always try to catch up with friends or idk, do something relatively productive. It has nothing to do with maintaining relationships t...