Grateful to be back home and on my comfortable bed. The giant fan is turned on to it's maximum power and it's directly facing me and I'm in between fluffy pillows. I'm convinced that this is what heaven is probably like.
It wasn't so wild at work. Day went by real quick actually. I wish i could divide my attention between kids equally though. I always find myself feeling somewhat unsatisfied with how i've handled a class. I'm working on it though. Everday, i try to better myself one way or another. Once again, slow progress is better than no progress. I'm feeling quite the pressure to be honest. The good teachers are leaving to pursue their studies and soon i'll be alone again.
Back to square one.
Last day of the work week tomorrow and i'm thrilled. I always look forward to off days. Who doesn't?
Planning to do some writing with Violet on Monday. Maybe we'll dine at the Thai food place. Get some good food to fuel us through the day of writing. Might meet up with the teachers on Tuesday to chill too but i don't know. We'll see.
I don't want to be constantly negative or be around negative people. It's quite a challenge but i need to stay afloat. I don't care if people think i'm being selfish by putting myself first this time. I have to do it. It's much healthier and my quality of life has drastically improved from removing all the toxins. I still feel low of course but somehow, i could breathe a little better this time. It's as if the air is cleared from so much smoke.
I need to keep writing as well. For the longest time, writing has been my only outlet. I've lost the momentum for quite sometime now but i do want to get back on it. I need to be vocal about how i feel. Bottling things up is going to damage me further. I can't afford that right now. I can't afford it ever.