I remember telling myself that i was never gonna come to Korea again because of the bad experiences i faced but... I take it all back. Perhaps i wasn't paying attention to what was happening around me that much. It was unfortunate that i fell incredibly sick on the 2nd day of the trip. Everything was placed uphill and there were too many flights of staircases! I had lost my voice and i constantly felt exhausted and heavy. Needless to say, going uphill was the biggest challenge for me. i was breathless for the most part and when i finally got to a destination, i felt punctured and was completely drained of energy to take it all in. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with the country. Due to my deterioriating health, i was just not having it. That was not all though. The random and unexpected temperature drops made me want to surrender and fall to the ground. I may not look like i was suffering in those deceiving photos of me all smiley and happy but God knows. I tend to fall ill during, before or/and even after a trip but usually it wouldn't go so bad. Perhaps it was stress from my job i had back then that made me a weakling. I pulled through though. I forced myself out of bed every day because i didn't want it to be a wasted trip. Despite remembering the pain i felt, i remember great moments too. I'm so glad i recorded us being annoying and silly and i'm grateful to have kept all the low-quality videos in my ancient phone.
Lily, Dee, Ferr, Putri and i had plans to go to South Korea end of this year supposedly. Even my family's 2nd trip to Sabah got cancelled. I'm grateful that the airlines gave us refunds but i'm still feeling a little sad over missed adventures.
2020 was supposed to be a year full of travels. I remember writing that down as my New Year's resolution. I'm sure i'm not alone in this. I guess it will probably be a long time until this blows over.
I do miss the kids @ work but safety and health comes first. Right now, nobody knows when schools are gonna be safe enough to re-open. With so many people still ignoring the rules of the circuit breaker, it won't be a surprise if this semi-lockdown gets extended. I'm grateful to have a home to comfortably be in during this hard times. I know not many people have such blessings. Also, i feel like i've grown way more introverted than ever. Being indoors isn't a problem for me. I have been home for a full two weeks and i do not feel the urge or need to go out. At all.
I've been creating live videos for short lessons for the kids and i'm currently working on makin more for our official social media pages. Editing videos is definitely not my forte. I'm thankful that Ferr knows how to because i need to learn all of this to survive. Haha.
The other teachers and i have also been prepping future works and themes for the classes. Doing admin works and whatever that we needa do. When we come back, we'll be refreshed and ready to go. I don't want to sound too hopeful but Insha'Allah the situation will ease by June at least. Ever since the Circuit Breaker, the number keeps rising. I know it will get worse before it gets better, just like the use of Retinol lol but it doesn't mean it sucks less.
I hope everyone stays safe. Especially people who still have to go to work. May God bless the doctors and nurses all over the world for their services. In such a difficult period, let's focus on being kind to one another because everybody needs it right now.
Ramadan is going to be so different this year without bazaars and mosques. And i don't even think we can do house visiting when Raya comes. It doesn't affect me as much to be honest, because we only ever go to 1 house during Raya but i can't lie and say the atmosphere is going to be the same.
I can't quite believe that i'm 25 and in the middle of a pandemic.
I hope i become even more grateful and grounded after this. Never ever take things for granted and live life everyday like it's the last. Express only positive thoughts, words and actions and always remain kind even to those who is the least deserving.
We will go through this together.
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