Save your tears for another day

Hey.

It's been a good minute hasn't it?

We're still in a pandemic and we're already in MID january 2021. I feel like it hasn't completely hit me that we're in the future. I guess everyone's just trying to get through the day as is. 

Friends has already gotten vaccinated and i'm happy for them. I hope everyone gets the opportunity to do so soon. Malaysia has gone back into lockdown and it seems like we're gonna have to take tighter measures here, because of a recent spread case in the community. 

Is anyone else exhausted?

Work is work, i guess. I decided to stay on and see where life leads me to. I've been unmotivated and unproductive. I've been going in and out of sleep and even then, i still feel the need to hibernate. My body lacks energy and my food consumption has been wild. I haven't been taking care of myself well and it shows. I feel somewhat stuck. I can't really put into into words honestly. I tried explaining it to friends but it was difficult so i gave up trying. 

Not everything has been going downhill of course. Alhamdulillah for all the good things. And the bad. And the in betweens.