funny story

"Maybe in 5 years' time when i look back at this post, i'd laugh at myself on how young i was.
Maybe i'd be smiling from ear to ear with my husband-to-be by my side.
Maybe i'd be smiling sadly with my apartment with cats, all alone.
Maybe i'd be abroad, doing something really productive and meeting loads of new people.
Maybe i'd be on a cliff, just swinging my legs at the edge, feeling the wind blow on my face. Maybe i'd be backstage with Justin Bieber, consoling him on his bad day.

Maybe i'd be someone completely different.
Maybe, maybe i'd be happy."

I wrote this on March 4th, 2015.

Guess what? None of the above came true HAHA. Perhaps i could say that i am much happier now as compared to where i was but that's it. 

I don't know who needs to hear this but i've been way over the Justin Bieber phase. 

Also, we're still in a pandemic. I can't even chill by a random cliff. 

It's funny how i actually think 5 years is how long it takes for something big to happen. 

I'll check in again in another 5 perhaps. 

I'll be 30 then.

That actually scares me.

Wake me up when September ends

Hey.

It has been quite a bit. 

So much has been happening and i feel like my mental health has been tested like no other this year. I'm sure i'm not alone in this. 

I did somethin really brave recently. I don't wish to go into full detail yet but what i can say is that, i am really proud of myself. It has been quite an emotional turmoil but, i know that this is one of the greatest turning points of my life right now. I shall move forward, manifest all the good things and never look back. 

I'm not gonna lie and say that i'm not tired though. I always have been and i don't think that will change anytime soon. 

But hey, i'm trying.

Always trying.

Watching k-dramas have made me set incredibly unrealistic goals in life. There's just something about koreans that i love. Their storylines keep getting better and better. I hope i'll get to befriend the amazing writers, actors, actresses or/and even idols someday. Friends always laugh at me when i tell them that. I don't mind. I laugh at that thought too sometimes. Haha. There's no harm in wishful thinking though. It helps me get through each day.

Maybe someday i'll look back at this post and finally think to myself, "oh my God. I can't believe i typed this!! I'm actually waiting for Seo Joon to come back with our drinks right now!".

One can dream.