I should really stop saying things like "hey, it has been a while hasn't it?" at the start of every blogpost, after a long hiatus. haha
2021-2022 has been quite something. Hasn't been that smooth but i'm grateful regardless. I turned 28 recently and had an amazing break in KL. Visited the Van Gogh Alive exhibition and got somewhat emotional. Perhaps someday he'd be able to see how his art is appreciated worldwide now, in another lifetime. Singapore's having a similar exhibit sometime in March too, from advertisements i've seen. They're both from different organisers so i might drag a couple of friends to witness the beauty together.
I've decided to stay in today. This is quite rare. I'm 100% introverted but i try my best to busy my days. It doesn't matter if it's after work or on my off day, i'll always try to catch up with friends or idk, do something relatively productive. It has nothing to do with maintaining relationships to be honest. Sure, that sort of balance is important but i find that doing so, has been helping me heal. It isn't a solution but it definitely softened the blow. The other day i came across a tweet that says "i've healed too much, i don't even like anyone anymore" and i can't emphasise on how much i can relate to that haha.
This year, my resolution is to be selfish. I'm going to constantly put myself first and do the things that make me feel good.
Sometimes being too nice doesn't get you anywhere in life.
That's just how the world works right?