Secrets .

my house is turning into a Boutique . 0.0 

Those are old school wedding gowns and they are gorgeous i'm serious ! Nowdays you see people wearing white gowns with the veil and all [ common ! ] . I personally like the blue coloured one , i don't think it's in the picture but i'll snap it fully and show it to you guys . IT really looks unique ! Very Michael Jackson-ish !

AND i wouldn't mind wearing the top just like that if it had no puffy upper part <--- im so pestering mom to take that shit out .

Even though the white gowns are common , Mom has like , A L O T in her room . Her room = our room now cux Ferr & i sorta took over the place . lol .

And do you know how creepy it gets at night ?! The gowns are hangin from above and they're WHITE ...

and when it gets dark ... it'll just look like floating ... ghosts ...

i don't really know why Mom has all these things but she does have photoshoots to promote her make-up on people ? Maybe that's why . . . 

Anyway , i really , really want to like , revamp my living room . Change every single thing and make into my own . ha ha.  Okay , prolly not my own but atleast change it into ... something more ... Artsy .

And it'll be a l o t bigger if some of the things are NOT in here so i guess we should say BYE BYE to those things ...

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WTF moment . ha ha . I look ugly in all the pictures anyway so i don't mind so much putting it up .

OH and excuse the messy room . It's KIRA'S ROOM <--- must highlight this .

so ... 3 more days to results !

Honestly , i feel lost .

I don't know where my main AIM is anymore . I really , really feel lost .

You know what ? If i can't get into an Art school , i'll just go to whichever poly that'll accept me .

Even if it's a random course . I should try new things anyway . Yeah it'll kinda suck but i'll learn to accept it .

I have a bad feeling about the results , sigh .

i see all the sec threes tweeting about scoring 11 points or below .

Sorry to say but IT'S NOT EASY . i mean , seriously .

Unless you're naturally born smart like all the 4E4 students from my batch . 

i used to think i could do it too when i was in sec three but oh hell no .

im hoping for 5 passes .

I've visited Laselle's web page [ for the 100th time ] and the interview sounds kinda nerve-wrecking .

But if i don't try i'll never know right ? i'll have to bring a port folio - A2 paper with atleast ten drawings / whatever . I'll need 2D and 3D artworks too for more varieties . I'm in trouble cux ... i don't do 3D stuffs . 

i mean , i think i lost em all . So if i do get to go to the interview , it'll be purely based on my luck and my talking skills ...

NAFA sounds easier to get in ... just sit for an observation drawing test and an english proficiency test [ unless you already got a credit for English O levels ] .

YES I DID MY RESEARCH .

but i can't do any of the things listed above if i don't pass 5 subjects including English .

*touch wood* if i don't really do well ... i'll gather the points and just apply to the JAE system and just hope for the best . I'll apply to all random 12 courses that'll accept my points .

YES I DID RESEARCH ON THAT TOO .

and and and if i don't get into anything ...

i'll work ... get cash ... apply for private O's ... maybe i'll sit for a paper or two .

it might be costly but i have to do it .

And it's a longer route but ... It's the same as going to sec five and then going to a poly anyway so im not really gonna be far behind EXCEPT that i'll have to study on my own which is gonna be a lil weird ...

Oh please let me get good results , God ! 

<3 Rainn